I am ANGRY

I just spent my first 24 hours without having to bind/compress 5 Weeks after top surgery and I feel SO FUCKING FREE. After feeling super energetic and the happiest I have ever been in my life, I'm realizing I should have been able to do this sooner. I should have been able to feel this way DECADES ago (I'm 35). It's not fucking fair and I HATE how much I've missed out on and the damage done to my life and others because I was trying to fit in with society and their demand for "normalcy". I am absolutely ENRAGED. I guess I'm asking how do you focus on the positive? How do you stay happy? Because I've been ranting politics wise since I realized my existence is political. But I really want to enjoy myself now that I feel like I CAN, but idk how