They're all dying

Im heart broken, sad and angry at myself. I had 30 beautiful large plants. Most survived me having our first baby and a move, but after having our second, the damage seems irreparable. My ficus trees, alocasias, monstera, ferns, succulents... they're all dying to thrips, spidermites and waterlogged soil. I cry inside. I tried treating the pests but the house is small and inevitably, somehow somewhere they come back and spread like a black plague. Im just so sad and wanted to vent somewhere. 🥲