Feeling humiliated after having to ask my mom for money as a 32 year old woman

I hate hate the feeling of having to ask for anything, I have been unemployed for over a year and in a terrible mental health state because of it.

My last job was in tech and it was six figures and I thought that I finally made it, but jokes on me, I ended up being laid off. I tried Uber eats bicycle but wasn’t getting any requests, DoorDash put me on a waitlist, I’m not getting any requests from Rover/Wag, and task master as well as insta shopper both put me on a waitlist. I also looked up retail jobs I could take but whenever I’d go in person at a store, they tell me they aren’t actually hiring. I ask, why do you have a listing online then? And they said that it is corporate and that they don’t know.

I’m currently at an Airbnb after being unable to afford rent and I’m on my last quarter year of my masters before I graduate. I called my mom and asked her if I could borrow money to cover my masters for this quarter and I feel so humiliated, I was dreading this call. I can’t believe I am in this situation.

I feel depleted, and really awful. I’m a frugal person to begin with and I specifically chose my major during my bachelors because I thought it would bring me job stability and a good career, unfortunately, reality is different. I wish I wasn’t this emotional about it but it hurts, it hurts so bad.

This is me just venting, I hope no one will ever go through this.