(F19) Realising you’ll never be another persons first choice

Does anyone else get this? It’s like no matter what I’m never the first person to be thought of for anything, with my friend group I’ll be the last invited out, the person people always say “we should totally catch up sometime” but then never message back. The good old ‘she’s my best friend but I’m not hers’ hurts particularly hard, I don’t even really care about romantically. I just want someone to enjoy being around me, to want to spend time with me and talk to me without finding me obnoxious or chatty.

Like people stay interested in me for a couple of weeks max, and then they move on to brighter pastures or whatever

I’m lonely and always on my phone, feel free to dm if ur lonely too