Self - Mastectomy

If this is not the right subreddit please direct me to one that is able to help.

I (FTM16) have suffered from diagnosed body dysphoria for years. It particular stems to my more feminine curvature and breasts. I’ve recently found an old Redditor (account was deleted so I’m unsure of the username) who performed his own mastectomy successfully as he was dealing with Gynecomastia. I’ve been battling with mental health for years and have visited many facilities which have been proven to not work for me. I believe the only way I’ll be able to get better would be through HRT and surgery, both things that are illegal in my state and incredibly expensive for me. Is there any way I could perform a mastectomy on myself without bleeding to death or causing infection? I’ve taken a few years of medical classes so I’m aware of where certain vessels and veins are to stay away from.

Before anyone tells me to try tape or a binder I already have and they don’t work. Thank you :) !!