Watching SOUL while depressed.

I just watched soul for the first time based on a coeworkers recommendation to me. I was freaking out because someone asked me when I want to do with my life, what I want to learn, any skills or knowledge I’m interested in, and I started freaking out. I don’t know. I don’t even know what I like to do for fun when I’m not at work; I just go about my day and a lot of the time I find myself sitting and waiting for the time to just pass. Anyways she told me to watch Soul and or inside out (I have never seen either of them), so I watched soul.

First 30 minutes were depressing as fuck The next hour was fun and entertaining and the last 20 ish minutes was devistating. She told me it’s supposed to be bitter sweet but I don’t get it. I just felt the movie was to relatable and it reinforced that I am not good enough and that I don’t have any purpose to be alive. I don’t see my therapist for a few days but I can’t hold this in. I’m internally panicking and I’m so lost.