My husband beat me and I think it's my fault......

I was planning a surprise and my husband was about to spoil it at a gathering, so I pinched him on the arm to tell him to be quiet.... He didn't say anything at that time but as we got home I noticed he was angry with me... I didn't want to escalate the situation to I apologized to him for pinching him but also told him he disrespected me by spilling my secret... He exploded after that.. punched me 3 times on the arm and slapped me behind my neck that how dare you pinch me infront of anyone... I took the beating and now I am crying in my room beating myself up.... I don't really have anyone I can share this with.... I feel so broken....

Edit: I'm south Asian, not easy to leave a marriage..... Everyone here attacks the woman's character or asks here to be patient....