Post nut clarityyyyy

“Last na muna ‘to. I’m entering a serious relationship na with someone.” Those words replayed in my brain a hundred times. Reflecting on it now, ako ba, magseryoso na ba ako? Kaya ko na ba? Nakakatanggal ng stress while doing it, lalo na kung gustong-gusto mo yung ka-sex mo. It’s physically satisfying. But at the end of the day, kanino ako magkukwento ng nangyari sa araw ko? Sinong iu-update ko kung sinong recent na nakasagutan ko sa COF ko kasi nag-iinarte na naman? Sinong sesendan ko ng post-workout pictures sabay sabing, “new PR, eyyy!” hahah. Alam niyo yun? I want those things. But hookup culture has gotten into me, and it’s so hard to remove it from my system. Lucky me, I can easily get a guy to do it with me, but yeah, after sex, wala na. Some became FUBU, pero hanggang dun lang. Wala nang nakagraduate sa FUBU. Tapos si self naman, nagiging okay lang din sa setup. Ang ayos din kasi na you get sex without being committed. Grabe, deadly combo naman nito : I want a genuine relationship, but I’m afraid of commitment.