What now?
Yesterday I worked up my courage to finally attempt. I had chosen alcohol poisoning to be the way, alas I didnt have enough to do anything so I just have a headache. If I was 21 this wouldn’t be a problem but no I have to wait 6 more months.
What am I escaping? I cant decide what I want to do with my life. Im not making any progress only getting 2 course credits at CC per semester I don’t want to do anything. Every career option seems boring and somewhat depressing. And if I want to do the things I love, it means throwing away that sense of security. If I lay in the dark nothing good will come if I make an attempt to on school nothing good will come.
Im mostly convinced that nothing good will come it doesnt matter what direction I try to climb that I will not end up where I want to be.
Yesterday I worked up my courage to finally attempt. I had chosen alcohol poisoning to be the way, alas I didnt have enough to do anything so I just have a headache. If I was 21 this wouldn’t be a problem but no I have to wait 6 more months.
What am I escaping? I cant decide what I want to do with my life. Im not making any progress only getting 2 course credits at CC per semester I don’t want to do anything. Every career option seems boring and somewhat depressing. And if I want to do the things I love, it means throwing away that sense of security. If I lay in the dark nothing good will come if I make an attempt to on school nothing good will come.
Im mostly convinced that nothing good will come it doesnt matter what direction I try to climb that I will not end up where I want to be.