tw suicide
i can't do anything. i can't fix this. I can't get a job or clean or work or be happy or shower or get out of bed. I need to kill myself. I don't have anything. it'll be 1 year since I quit my last job. I hated it. I need to kill myself. work makes me hate life. not working makes me hate life. I need to kill myself. if I can't even get an interview before 1 year I'm better off dead. I'm a worthless fucking leech who should have killed himself long ago. I need to. I want to drive a knife into my chest. beat myself into a worthless pulp. gouge my eyes out. im gonna kill myself. just a matter of when. and how. I'll probably just give up and lay in bed till I die. as much as I'd love to be turned into a fucking stain on the road. I'm going to kill myself. there's simply no other option for me. I can't do anything. I can't turn my life around. I should have given up long ago. I should've hung myself after I quit my job. before I graduated even. my family is tired of me. I know it. I can't fix this. I can't there's only one way I can I have to kill myself. I have to do it soon. i can't keep going. its impossible. completely hopeless. i need to turn my head inside out. steal my dad's gun and run far away. I need to kill myself. my life is worthless. I just rot and wish to die. I wanna tear myself apart. I need to kill myself. ive been a piece of worthless shit since I was born. ik they hate me. everyone would be happier without me. they'd fucking celebrate my death. "i don't have to buy food for him anymore" i wanna carve myself open. im gonna kill myself. idk when. but i am. no one cares and no one knows. then I'll disappear amd blow my worthless brain out. keeping me alive is immoral. I am not going to live a normal life. there's no chance. i can't ever be happy, not when I have to work and shower and get out of bed and do laundry and eat and clean and work and get out of bed until I fucking snap and drive into a pole at 100 mph. I am beyond helping. the only thing that could help me is a fucking bullet to the head or a lethal injection. put me down like a worthless piece of shit. I simply was not cut out for this. its only natural that I kill myself. its the only possible outcome. I need to kill myself violentl until I'm a wortI'll ksess red stain
i can't do anything. i can't fix this. I can't get a job or clean or work or be happy or shower or get out of bed. I need to kill myself. I don't have anything. it'll be 1 year since I quit my last job. I hated it. I need to kill myself. work makes me hate life. not working makes me hate life. I need to kill myself. if I can't even get an interview before 1 year I'm better off dead. I'm a worthless fucking leech who should have killed himself long ago. I need to. I want to drive a knife into my chest. beat myself into a worthless pulp. gouge my eyes out. im gonna kill myself. just a matter of when. and how. I'll probably just give up and lay in bed till I die. as much as I'd love to be turned into a fucking stain on the road. I'm going to kill myself. there's simply no other option for me. I can't do anything. I can't turn my life around. I should have given up long ago. I should've hung myself after I quit my job. before I graduated even. my family is tired of me. I know it. I can't fix this. I can't there's only one way I can I have to kill myself. I have to do it soon. i can't keep going. its impossible. completely hopeless. i need to turn my head inside out. steal my dad's gun and run far away. I need to kill myself. my life is worthless. I just rot and wish to die. I wanna tear myself apart. I need to kill myself. ive been a piece of worthless shit since I was born. ik they hate me. everyone would be happier without me. they'd fucking celebrate my death. "i don't have to buy food for him anymore" i wanna carve myself open. im gonna kill myself. idk when. but i am. no one cares and no one knows. then I'll disappear amd blow my worthless brain out. keeping me alive is immoral. I am not going to live a normal life. there's no chance. i can't ever be happy, not when I have to work and shower and get out of bed and do laundry and eat and clean and work and get out of bed until I fucking snap and drive into a pole at 100 mph. I am beyond helping. the only thing that could help me is a fucking bullet to the head or a lethal injection. put me down like a worthless piece of shit. I simply was not cut out for this. its only natural that I kill myself. its the only possible outcome. I need to kill myself violentl until I'm a wortI'll ksess red stain