drowning in debt and doubt

I sat at my steno machine at 2 am this morning, tears dripping onto the keyboard, wondering if all this effort is truly worth it. My hands are cramped, my bank account nearly empty, and my future feels like a narrowing path with no exit in sight.

The reason I was up at 2am is b/c I had the longest day ever and didn't want to go 24 hours without touching my machine. That's my 2025 resolution. I'm sick of all the dictation I've been doing. I'm sick of the program/school I'm in, but I love this lil machine and my theory. But it's been so hard this year. I feel like I'm not making any progress and I just feel so isolated.