Finally posting

Well…long time lurker finally posting. Life has been crazy this past year. I (37m) have been blessed with a super healthy awesome baby girl and a kick ass wife. Relocated mid-pregnancy for new job. It’s been a whirlwind. To that end I’ve always drank, and over the last 6 months it’s become way more problematic. Not showing up the best for my wife, my baby and my work. Overall I know it’s taking a toll and it seems more out of control.

I recently opened up a few of my old notebooks and it’s sad to read entry after entry of wanting to moderate. I appreciate the words and wisdom of people here freeing themselves from the shackles of moderation. It has been my belief I could do it. It’s a painful way to live for me. I’m always playing games in my head. Instead today I’m going to focus on one day at a time, and just commit to not drinking today. I opened up to my wife and as hard as the convo is I know it’s the only way to save this marriage and be the best dad I can be. I’ll be posting and checking in more. There is more to life than this. Here is to happiness and being more present in life. IWNDWYT (hope that’s right).