Ok I think I've had enough now.

Guys, I am beyond ready to get off this vicious cycle. I'm so tired of my own bullshit promises "today Im not going to drink" only to drink again. Ive been trying for years to cut down, even went on naltrexone for about a year which worked beautifully until it didnt. I quit drinking for a month and stopped taking the pill, only to go back on it to have awful side effects that werent there before. I've tried many more times since to go back on it, only to stop again because the side effects (nausea) become too much. Im drinking less than I was prior to going on Naltrexone but its enough that I notice the change in myself and know better than to drink more than I do. About 1/2 bottle of wine every night.

What motivates me is knowing how much better people feel after abstaining. Thr most ive gone recently is 3 days and I felt amazing about myself. I want to feel good about myself again. Clear headed. Not feeling like im wading through water every day, I want my anxiety to improve .... The fatigue to stop, im just so over this and I cant seem to get out of my own way when the craving hit. Theres always a reason why its no big deal.

I poured out the half bottle of wine i had in my fridge and I want to get a good streak under my belt starting tomorrow. I need some encouragement and tips on how to get through the cravings. How long until they started to subside? Tell me more About ghe benefits you felt - this really keeps me going in moments where I start to lose my focus. Counting on some wisdom from y'all to at least make some progress this time.