I never had a girlfriend and I’m sure it because of my autism and appearance despite I went to the gym and college to work on myself but had no goals

I’m gonna turn 28 year old next month and plan on voting to San Francisco for birthday trip and I still haven’t had a girlfriend.

I feel like my time is running out and I don’t know what to do.

I have been alone all my life and for once I just want to be love. I don’t know why but I always find it hard to socialized with other even if I went to the events and everyone had their own group of friends and I don’t know if I’m gonna fit in with them and I don’t know how to start. I am not good at making friends and I wish I can just meet new people and talk to.

I feel like I have a sad life all alone and no one to talk to. People around will never understand how I am feeling and I feel frustrated because it made me feel isolated and no one cares about me. But I just want to find someone that I can love and be loved. I am not sure what to do going forward. I am lost in life and no clue what is coming for me.