I'm almost certainly not the first one to say this, but i'm scared.

My name is Tyler Grant [my full first name fyi] i'm 14, love comics and cartoons and just so happen to have been born different from other boys my age because.......you probably know why since i'm here. I grew up with a very conservative step-father and a mother who claims to remain neutral. My step-dad was not a good person, sexist, racist, arrogant. I don't live with him anymore though after his relationship with my mom. I realized I was Trans after heavy dysphoria for years and years, and it only clicked after I met my therapist whose name will remain anonymous. I didn't come out because my step-dad probably would've killed me. I told my mom as soon as she started to get over him about my identity. She didn't believe me. But after a year of rough conversations in our living room, she finally believed me in the summer of 2024. Enough so that she would support me coming when I started high school. And so it happened. I came out. It was so wonderful I could've died and it would've been the best day of my life still. But now it's January 22nd 2025 and i'm scared. I feel horrible about being trans I swear to god why couldn't I have been born the way I could've and should've been. I feel like god has rejected me and put me in some labyrinth. I'm worried and not just for me it's for the, Immigrants, women, and other LGBT people who are already beginning to suffer. I feel like shit and that nothing is working on. First I can't get treatment as a teen who has years of evidence that they really do feel the way they do and now I probably won't be able to get healthcare as I do. So I must say this, how do I hold on, your the adult please tell me the adults are making things okay please. Tell me you have a plan i'm begging you, I don't want my life to be seen as some culture war please. [sorry if there are any grammar errors, if you have any questions i'd be happy to answer them]