Feeling isolated even in trans spaces

I am a fourteen year old trans girl, I I’m also feel very genderfluid. I feel like I don’t really fit in inside trans spaces because I am making the choice to wait until I am done with male puberty to do hrt. It feels weird doing this and then seeing every trans meme on my front page about estrogen pills or progesterone. It’s also kind of an imposter syndrome thing. I don’t feel trans enough for trans women but I’m too trans for cis people. Dating is hard. I’m a romantic person, but I’m not girl enough to appeal to lesbians. Really my only option is other trans people my age, which is like none