Trt dose increase feeling awful

Hi! I don't know what to do. I started trt 3 months ago. First my doctor would put me on 100mg every 2 weeks then I changed to 100mg every week. On that protocol I would feel bad the first days and better mid week and then low energy. So I changed my protocol 2 weeks ago to 75mg twice a week (150mg/weekly in total). I feel quite bad, no energy, unmotivated and very depressed with suicidal thoughts. I have depression prior to trt but since the protocol change and dose increase I feel way worse. And my doctor says everything should be fine. I don't trust him and think he knows little about how testosterone could affect mood and protocols. Should I give it more time and probably things will even out? Is this normal?