Do you have some childhood memories that just make sense now that you know you’re trans ?

Or did you have some "gender envy" (i still use this expression even if it’s associated with tucutes but I don’t know how to say it otherwise) that you now understand better ?

Im particularly curious about trans women experiences since im a trans man.

Some weird thing for me was short jackets with inside pocket? Idk it felt so masculine for me to put your wallet or phone in your inner pocket.

On a more serious level, I was always so admirative of male characters in movies or shows. In video games I felt so sad when I had to play with a girl character, unless I had some sort of crush on her. It makes so much sense that I was meant to be a man.

Also im very jealous of boys knowing they will grow up as men. I had a gender neutral childhood (not purposefully, my parents just let me play with whatever toys I wanted etc), so I don’t think things would have been that different if I was born as a guy. But since I was a girl, I knew that I would grow up as a woman, and at that time it felt very far away, so it didn’t bother me.

But now when I see little boys on the streets I can’t help but feel like I’m missing something, I imagine how my life would have been knowing I could grow up as a man and just be a normal teenager.