Ttc has ruined my libido.

At first it was fun, but now it feels like a chore.. Always making sure that we don't miss a day, scheduling, no spontaneity at all. Now I am mostly not in the mood, I don't feel the desire to initiate. I'm still enjoying it while we do it tho. I feel like crap about that and knowing that after all, it doesn't work anyway make it worst. Sorry, I just needed to tell someone :(