Can I just… rant

Came off the pill on my 29th birthday last year in May hoping to have caught for my 30th the following year… caught in October which sadly ended in a mmc and then surgery the week before Christmas. Just started CD2 of whatever cycle this is… I give up counting.

Everything is triggering me, I am bitter, fed up, sick of peeing on sticks and tracking everything religiously. I have an almost 3 year old and I am triggered by my fb memories of baby announcement and gender reveal etc. We have a wedding next month and I’m actually due on the day of the wedding… so I am trying to look at it as if I don’t catch this cycle Atleast I will know I can drink at the wedding. Sorry to rant… I know people have it worse. This is just all so awfully shit. My mc due date would have been my partners 30th in July. I would have been 30 weeks on my 30th. I hate this game.